For me, words appear like dead, artfully arranged ants; dried and pressed onto the page. Like ants, they sting my eyes after a few paragraphs. If I continue, my right eye will throb with a migraine.
I have Asperger’s Syndrome and struggle to adapt to modern technology. I do not social network nor have any interest except for activism/advocacy. I hate the constant updating of software and never-ending mishaps that plague my PC. I have no mind for “systems”.
When transitioning from the virtual world back to the real world (where, though not very comfortable either, I identify with the physically tangible and real-that is why I love photography), I have to come down off a frenetic “high”. The longer online, the harder to come down. Why do I stay on so long sometimes? To help advocate for me and for you. To promote my photography.
I do not comprehend smart technology. I cannot make sense of “tapping” something. I must be able to physically touch something real. My desktop PC’s keyboard is ideal, because it takes firm touch to command. I find Laptops almost impossible due to the feather-light touch of the keys and whatever the thing at the bottom that subs for a hands on mouse. I don’t use apps. I don’t identify with the randomness and anonymity of the online experience.
I do not loathe all technology or progress in general. Organizing my music library and editing my photos as well as composing prose & poetry are some offline things I enjoy doing. However, I think it has made all of us more “autistic” as in locked-in, pre intervention-particularly smartphones combined with texting, Twitter and Facebook as a whole. Our intellect has surpassed our emotional control. I know I am not alone in this viewpoint due to various media reports, including one last night on the PBS Newshour dealing with hackers accessing smart technology in cars, homes and even a toddler’s nursery in Texas.
I like being able to rely primarily on myself and my tangible experiences first. Safety and security are a temporary illusion in cyberspace.
I long for an interpersonal relationship and purpose, but have not had any better luck in the cyber-world than in real life. I write this not as a rant, but to dispel a stereotype that ALL people with ASD are all Bill Gates or Albert Einsteins in training. We owe much to these men, but not all of us Aspies aspire to be them just because we are Aspies.
I will say that given my interests that I do enjoy online, I would still like to be employed part-time online doing book-keeping (or something of non-social media nature).
I found an excellent blog post which proves my point: http://qz.com/88141/people-with-autism-are-not-necessarily-meant-to-be-computer-programmers/
Computer programming is not a one-size fits all vocation for those with autism.
I will leave you with this quote I saw on a bumper sticker: “God, the original wireless connection.”